Ever just been confused about everything? That’s me right now. I just feel so confused. I mean, I know what I want but I also have that bit of confusion going on. And it’s about everything. Not just one thing or everything related to one thing. It just seems to be connected to everything.

School confuses me. I thought I was going to be good and go to my dad’s school. It would cost me alot less and I can study something that I want to study. Now I’m not sure I want to study that. I feel so weird about going to an offline school. I haven’t been to actual classes in forever. It’s also kind of far from the house so I don’t know how I feel about that. I have to get all my transcripts and I don’t even know if I can get all of that.

Work sucks. I don’t have a “real” job so that makes thngs difficult. I work online but I don’t think that’s doing me good right now. I might have to work elsewhere but then I don’t know about school. Then I will have to transfer and I don’t know if I can do that.

I’m supposed to be finding my own place but I need it in a centralized location. I don’t even know where that is though. So I’m so confused about that. Any ideas?

Hey! I wanted to post about Jeanine’s The Body Shop giveaway.  You can check out the post here. I love giveaways like this, but I barely win anything. It’s the fun in it though, plus I want to make sure that her giveaway gets out there so everyone can see it! It’s open to U.S. and Canadian residents, so you should definitely check it out.



Let me just say.. Good byes suck. I hate good byes. They aren’t really good byes. More like see you laters but they still suck. They still hurt. I just didn’t know what to do with myself. I hated saying good bye to Memphis. He just quite understand everything yet and that breaks my heart. He keeps saying that he’ll see me later. But he doesn’t quite get how far later is.

I miss my family. I really do. I went from seeing them everyday to just talking to them on the phone and that’s not den every day which is going to need to be. I miss watching tv and playing video games and all of that fun stuff. Just going shopping and hanging out.

I mean, don’t get me wrong.. I love where I’m at. I love A. It’s just hard. I’m glad I’m where I’m at but it doesn’t make it any easier to be away. I hope this makes sense.

I’m just sitting on the plane right now. Mixed emotions. Excited and anxious to see A but sad I’m leaving my family. I also can’t wait to get off the plane. I’m not that big of a fan of flying.

So I’m going back to visit in June. I can’t believe my brother is graduating high school. That’s so insane to me! I have no idea what all we are going to be doing but it’ll be fun.

I thought it would be best if I just talk about the rest of the week in this post. It’s going to be kind of lengthy but oh well.

Monday, my brother had school but we ended up picking him up early. We went and got McDonald’s and then headed up to Tomales Bay. We stopped at the Hog Island Oyster Co and picked up 150 oysters.

Memphis ended up throwing up all over himself in the car. It sucked. We had to pull over. I think he got car sick. So that was horrible. It took us 2 hours to get home. We waited until my mom got off of work and then we went to Kim Tarr for dinner. My favorite Chinese food restaurant. We also went to Hello Desserts for dessert.

Tuesday, my sister and uncle went up to the mall. My mom went to go pick up my brother from school. So it was just Memphis and myself. Then my mom, Memphis and I went to Auto Zone to get them to run the diagnostics on her car but they don’t do it anymore. So we went over to DD’s Discounts where I bought Memphis an Ironman outfit and some Black & Decker tools. I also bought my brother some stuff for his birthday.

We hung out at the house until it was time to go to the San Jose Sharks & New Jersey Devils game. My sister stayed home because she had homework and her friend’s birthday dinner. The game was pretty awesome. The Sharks lost but it was awesome. Memphis ended up throwing up and almost hit the people in front of us. My dad made it home from school to go to the game as well.

Wednesday, I got really sick with a stomach virus. We went and got some pho. It was good but I could barely eat. We walked around Target and my uncle got Memphis a new booster seat, pull ups and an Ironman fishing pole. Then we picked up my brother from school and then went to the mall to shop for my sister.

We didn’t find what we wanted but we came home because I started to feel worse and my brother started to feel sick. Later that night, my uncle and I went to see Cirque Du Soleil: Ovo. It was amazing. Great show. Great performance.

Thursday was my little brother’s 18th birthday! While he was in school, we went up to Haight St and walked around. We got some pizza and stopped by the Coach store. We didn’t get anything but we went back to the house and picked up my brother who was then out of school. We went to Malibu Grand Prix and drove on the go-karts, which was so much fun. We also got on the bumper boats which we all got soaked on. My sister also started to get sick. We played in the arcade and then went to dinner. We ate at Red Robin a it was really good. We had a great waitress.

My sister went home because she was sick. The rest of us went and saw Cop Out which really wasn’t that great a movie. It was pretty bad. I like Bruce Willis but I wasn’t feeling that movie at all.

Today, I woke up and played with Memphis for a little bit before his dad picked him up and took him home. My mom cooked me up breakfast and I said bye to my uncle. My brother said bye before he went to school and my sister called me from work while I was packing. My mom took me to the airport and I was so late. My flight was late though. Thank god or I would’ve missed it.

And that was my week! I had a great time with my family. It was a long time since I’ve seen them last. I’m glad I got to hang out with them.

I’m in California! My trip wasn’t bad. A dropped me off at the airport. I printed out my boarding passes and went into line. Turns out I printed the one for the second half of my trip so I had to go back and get the right one. I had to rush to my flight after that..

First flight wasn’t that bad. I slept. I had a layover in Phoenix. Bought trail mix, water and a magazine. The second flight was empty. I had a row to myself. I sprawled out and slept.

My sister picked me up from the airport. We went to Fry’s for her job. Then we went to the house. I got to see my cat! We hung out and then picked up some pho. We ate and played Twilight Scene It. I won both times! I’m good, haha. Then she had to go to work.

My brother came home and I gave him the Kobe jersey that I bought him for Senior Night. I saw some of his friends. My mom came home and we hung out all night. We talked, watched tv. It was nice.

My brother went to Sadies and had fun. Then he came home. We stayed up, listening to music.

It’s been nice being home and seeing everyone. It’s kinda cold here and it’s freezing in my mom’s house. I’m not used to that.

I know it’s been a minute since I posted, but I wanted to post about Jeanine’s

$25 Starbucks giveaway.  You can check out the post here. I love giveaways like this, but I barely win anything. It’s the fun in it though, plus I want to make sure that her giveaway gets out there so everyone can see it! It’s open to U.S. and Canadian residents, so you should definitely check it out.

Describe your Valentine in five words. Strong, smart, caring, intelligent, and sexy.

How old were you when you fell in love for the first time? 17.

How many times have you been in love? A couple.

What is the most romantic moment you’ve experienced? Honestly, that first kiss we had in Vegas was amazing. The whole spinning me around and everything was just magical. I loved it.

What is the most romantic thing anyone has ever done for you? It’s the little things that I enjoy. The wake ups, the cuddling, the text messages – I love all of that.

Which do you prefer – Chocolates or Flowers? Flowers.

Best Valentine present you ever received? They’ve all been wonderful.

Worst Valentine present you ever received? n/a

Your favorite Valentine candy? I like chocolate!

Love to eat? I love it when we go to our normal spots.

Love to go? Anywhere with him.

Love to see? Him happy!

Love it when? He hugs and kisses me.

Doing anything special this Valentine’s Day? Not that I know of. We have fun every day and we do something special for each other all the time, not just on Valentine’s Day!

Borrowed from Jenn!

Christina and I used to have an awesome message board back in the day and we decided to bring one back. Please check out Tuttie.net. It’s been up for a little bit, but we decided to reopen it and try to get it active again. So please check it out and join if you have the chance. We want a ton of people to join and talk a lot on the board.

www.tuttie.net

Hello out there! Finally got the new domain up. It took a while.. now I gotta see about getting a new theme or something for it. It’s different than what I’m used to. After having the same domains forever, it’s taking some time to get used to. But I like it. I like it a lot.

The name is new. I like the word killjoy for some reason. I’m one of those sarcastic people that can do it for you lol. I’ve also moved and I wanted a new beginning. I wanted to be able to speak freely. You almost never get to do that anymore. I also left my job and I’m quite happy with that. The money was alright but with what I had to put up with, it just wasn’t worth it anymore.

I also moved hosts so I hope my site just works that much better now. I was with my old host for like 3 years and I had some issues here and there. Drove me insane. But I guess now that I moved, there shouldn’t be any issues like that.

So I’m pleased. I shall go now.. I seem to be boring the boyfriend now since he just started snoring. It makes me giggle. He’s so adorable.